I WILL have all of that!

Isaiah 30:15 ~ This is what the Sovereign LORD, the Holy One of Israel, says: "In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength..."


This verse continues to say "but you would have none of that." None of that! No repentance. No rest. No quietness. No trust. No salvation or strength! Um...why? Why would anyone not want this? Or is it that we want this, but cannot figure out how to achieve it. 


The verse says, in order to achieve it, we have to repent, rest, be quiet and trust. Is that really so hard? I would have to say....YES! For some of us more so than others. 


I know for me, I am a dreamer. My mind is always racing with all of the possibilities of what could be. I am also a planner, a "beaver" type personality, who is always wanting to have everything prepared and in place. When I find myself lingering in moments of the unknown the whole dreamer/need to be prepared personalities collide within me and bring great anxiety. 


For a "doer" to just rest and trust can be physically painful, not too mention what it does to our mental well being.  But here is a funny thing. It is in "doing" that I seem to then find my rest. 


This morning, my mind was moving so fast I could have almost cried. So I grabbed my Ipod and headed to the basement where I have more than enough mindless work to do. I spent the next hour folding and hanging clothes and reorganizing the laundry room, while listening to the "Dance 4 God" playlist. Through the words and the movements of my body, I found rest.


"This is the moment, it's on the line which way you gonna fall?....It's your life whatcha gonna do? The world is watching you. Everyday the choices you make, say of what you are and who your heart beats for." 


That's right! I have people watching me. Am I going to freak out, or trust. Am I going to try and control and manipulate, or am I going to be quiet and know that you did not lead me on  path of destruction, but one of abundance. 


Yahweh, your dreams for me are bigger than any dream I could dream for myself. I trust that. I will rest in that. I will set my eyes and ears on you and let you lead me. I WILL have all of that! Thank you!